If only.

If only I could turn back the tide of time...

When things are done, they're done. No point arguing with yourself, trying to justify your actions when the justification's weak and fallacious and you're justifying it to someone who already knows. Illogical, isn't it? Feelings cloud judgment, and there's no treasure greater than the cool logical mind in crises. Feelings are nothing but the haze which clouds your vision.

Maybe what you're going through is nothing. Maybe others are going through tougher stuff, more arduous struggles, so what is a little disappointment to those? A little conflict and you feel like escaping. Deal with it! Feelings only add on to the mistake, they cloud your thinking, make you procrastinate, and in hindsight you wish you'd thought it out clearly. So discard that which makes you weak.

Emotional stability is key. Let is slide. Let it roll off. Why look into so many things that are not there, or when there, don't matter a whit? There are no obstacles, only those which exist in your mind. Let it go. Let them go.

Deal with the larger wider perspective. Rationalization for feelings do not make things anymore logical, or do not justify illogical actions. Wake up! Be present to the world, instead of acting out the robotic reactions of the heart. See how your feelings programme you to act this way. Observe how you react predictably to certain situations. Suppress it! Do what is right, not just what feels right.

Think! There is no stock answer to everything. Nothing can be achieved without thinking, without struggling, without hard work. Coincidences do not happen. Luck runs out. Serendipity is elusive. And when you're down on your luck there is only the mind to rely on. The intelligence that differentiates a robot with programmed reactions and a human mind.

You think it's bad, there's worse out there. Do what you can, and leave it at that.